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There are so many times I feel like I make this journey alone. I feel like I’m in a world that no one can ever enter into. I have built my walls of defense and tried to hold them up high so that I would be protected from the emotional elements. When someone finds a way in, or I lower the gates and allow them in, I feel extremely vulnerable with them running around my little world…
I have trust issues. I don’t like making myself vulnerable anymore… I don’t like letting people in anymore. I don’t mind them hanging outside the outer walls of the city and mingling, but I really don’t want them coming inside. Even if I allow them in, I question my choice and kind of want to be by myself again… I know it’s not the right way to be, but it is true and I’m trying to fight it…
I want to have a world full of people. I want people to be able to gather within the walls of my city. I do want that but at times I don’t feel like I am good enough at policing everyone I let in. “What are they doing?!” “Do they wish me harm?!” “Why did you welcome them in?!” “What if they don’t see eye to eye with you on things and wish you harm?!” “What if they take your world for granted and trample upon it?!” “What if…”
So, letting people in is good, right?! I will give it a try but don’t be surprised if I have you hauled outside the city walls with the quickness. If I make myself vulnerable and you take advantage of that, we will have some hard decisions to make… Too many people have helped me get to this point in the past, including myself… But, only I can help me get over it… Let’s get to tearing down those walls!
Until next time…
However, US has more people surfing more of the Web… So, which is better? More people surfing less of the Web, or, less people surfing more of the Web?
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Well, there comes a time in every man’s life that he must decide to do something he can’t stand to do… For me, that is painting… Ugh…
I got a really crazy hair up my rear about 6 months ago, I guess, and found a little swatch of paint colors on an entry way that I thought was the best ever… So, I bought paint, started painting, and hate it… My entry way has looked like what you see above for quite some time… I’m getting tired of it.
So, I am going to go back with a dark brown color on the top and bottom of the chair rail and then the trim and chair rail are going back to white. I think it will be the best thing for everyone involved, which is me and occasionally myself. All iof the “decor” that I purchased to go in this entry way will still look great with the brown color, so all I am out if paint… Which, in itself is expensive enough! Man, is it…
Anyway, I hope all of my most valuable readers has a wonderful day. Remember, Cocoa loves you! 
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Did you hear that?! Nevermind…
Well, yesterday I used all of my strobes and 1 250-watt studio light to do a quick, dirty, and sweaty shoot… Man was it hot yesterday evening!!! 465% humidity?! Come on!!!
Well, a word to people out there who like to adjust extremely hot 250-watt lights while they’re on and on fire, don’t do it… That 250-watt bulb is very sensitive when it is that hot and it will blow up… mid shoot… and you’ll laugh… because you were dumb…
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